Back to School (and work!)
Today my daughter went back to school and I had my first work day, I mean REAL work day in months. Its days like today that I realize that I don't just love, but ADORE what I do. I love that I have the opportunity to walk her to school and return home to a quiet house where I get to work on my art and my business. Then I get to walk her home and hear about the day, make a snack and at the end of the day I get to start back in again for the night because everyone is actually in bed.
Every Summer I forget that this is the cycle. I beat myself up for not being productive enough and being unfocused. I have a constant feeling of being behind or not having enough hours in the day. I forget to take in to account that it is harder to start work at 11pm than 8pm and that I have completely lost my work days. When school starts and the schedule falls in place and I feel far more together, saner, happier. I think all I am looking for is to concentrate on one thing at a time and really be present for it
It takes days like today to remind me that all the multi tasking and juggling it is all quite doable when things are in balance. I'm not nearly has frustrated with things as I feel I am, I'm just looking for time which is just mine so that I can breath again. I hope within a few weeks I will be able to recognise myself again, see that hard worker back, and start to feel productive. Today I saw a glimmer of those qualities, I think they are still there, they've just been buried for a bit. So excited to wake up and do it all again tomorrow!